i officially declare i'm 21st years old today

i had celebrate my birthday at earlier saturday the 24th of october

i took quite a lots picture, but mostly in my friend's camera

but i upload some of the picture 1st...and my presents...

hehehehe=)

hui xsin's frens and me
kim and me
take 2
=) ding dong(cousin) and me take 2
=)my birthday cake and stupid me
=) take 2
=)daddy, mummy and i
=) my family and i
=)kim and me again~

boy and i
=)my secondary's classmate
left to right: siew pheng,chai,me,andrew ah yen(cousin),me,ding dong(cousin)

=)all cute baby and i
=) cute sister and brother

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my presents

=)

cai ji buy me a violin tuner today

he soo nice...last time when came to my party already bought me a hello kitty's purse

now buy me a tuner again...

he give it to my brother today during school

=) cute soft toys

from my brother frens

fan qian,u jian,catherine and mandy

thank you aah!!!

love it soo much~

=)the hello kitty purse is from cai ji and lester

thank you very much aah!!!

love it soo much~

and the hllo kitty's cup is from leon and his mummy

hehehe=)

thanks a lots the necklace from my mum's fren

=) hello kitty's bag from tracy, stacy and selly

thanks a lots...

love it soo much neh~

=) lip gloss from kim~

thank a lots!!!

glad to receive your present

=) another hello kitty's bag from hui xsin frens

yiru,erica,xuan ling,kah ling and her boyfriend...

thank you soo much...

love it soo much too!!!

have lots of photo haven't upload yet!!!

will continue upload when i take the picture from my friend~

kim...please send it to me faster~

can't wait to see those picture!!!

your capture skill is soo amazing!!!

=)

since i start working~a lots of things change
not only the relationship between him and i
even now my relationship between my family and i are getting worse
having dinner toghether 10 minutes
but we can don't even talk more then a minutes~
i hate this soo much!!! i hate my boss
i hate the stupid annoying air ticket thingy
i has try my best to help him~i keep calling the bank
ask them what should i do!!!
and he sarcastic me!!!
sarcastic me that doesn't help him
i try!!!i did try!!!i rather try the best to solve his problem
but he soo ironic and said i didn't help him...
i hate!!!i hate!!!i hate!!!
i'm damn depression!!!i'm damn disaffection!!!i'm damn moody
i know he is tired,but i am tired too!!!
i know he care his money...but he doesn't know i care much more then him
becoz i know how suffer and how hard he earn those money
i think he doesn't know i care!!!he don't even know
maybe i care much more then him!!!
i'm really tiring of once come back home still need to heard their blame
heard they scold on me said that i doesn't try my best to help them..
please!!!stop it!!!i cant stand for it anymore
i doesn't want this life
i doesn't want always go back home with a moody face
stop it!!!i'm soo much tired of this sucking life!!!

am i cruel???am i bad???

i keep asked myself this question...by non-stop~ing
i just leave him there???i just leave him like this way???
i'm really non-stop asking myself ; non-stop asking my sister the same question...
no more regret for me...he'll not give me any single chance anymore~
becoz he did and i hurt him deep again!!!he said he had not any ability to trust me anymore
so, i should not regret!!!i keep telling myself this too!!!
what is the reason i leave him???is that any reason???
i continuance asking myself too...end up!!!i couldn't find any solution!!!
i hate myself soo much...i hurt him once again and again!!!
what am i doing???what i did to him again???
i'm the most worse bastard in the world!!!

actually i don't deserve any chance from him last time...he trust the wrong people again~i'm a stupid bastard, i don't deserve a nice guy like him~i earnestly and sincerely bless him will be happy~he deserve a happy life

amen

fling away those sadness...and start with brand new life

planning to organize a buffet on my birthday

sadness!!!go away!!!

since i have start working i really have not enough time to practice my violin~sad!!!i dint practice like 5 days d...i cant give up on my violin~no matter how suffer or how tired i also wont give up on it!!!and yes i miss him a lots....